Standing, to Stand Out!

The first week of my 25th, and life is shaping up in an accelerating  pace. Its time I started making momentous decisions in my life:the things that I did not have the time or guts to do because maybe be I am the genial human that my closest of friends say I am.
For the last four years of my life I found a mouthpiece in my best friend, to word with utter sadism the things that I couldn't say to my fellow species.
My greatest weakness  maybe  is the fact that I think of myself as a greater being who has no time and place for the hoard of human beings who are painfully dramatic, insensitive and annoying in their verbal sense and mannerisms.
That said, this past week found me thrown in the middle of  the lions den,with no mouthpiece to fight my verbal wars and I had to take my claws out to dig at what I consider as threat to my being; taking care of the scandalous business usually involving the most notorious and ferocious of the male species.The potbellied,monied- not so good looking married type that will stop at nothing to drag naive girls into illicit  gallivanting sprees.
Mostly, I avoid their dens,hangouts and social circles but when you have a conspicuous 'future' behind you its nearly impossible to escape the line of vision of their ever wondering eyes.
To say the least, I get the occasional hoot,wave,wink,flashing car lights and as of this morning,a kiss blown my way. This leaves me irked, disgusted and almost always I am on the override with panic and fear.
The only other time I am awash by those Intense emotions is when I see a frog or mice.
The most scary part is when I get a call from an  new number and while I hope it is from a potential employer I  find it is a human bloodhound on the other end of the line offering to give me their version of heaven: a perverse, unholy affair that from what I believe to be the Truth is the path to dark of ages.
As trivial as this might sound to some (if not most of you) and as hard as it is to believe that there are women and girls in this modern day age who loathe the thought of ever finding themselves in as sheer as a compromising position with a married man, I want to assure you that we exist.
And yes it is not easy.
I am way too far from perfection.
It takes Discipline, Prayer and Jesus to make you grounded in times of temptations.
I for one have found new meaning to the Lord's prayer....."Lead us Not Into Temptation and Deliver Us from Evil..." I have made it it my business to pray... " Lord give me the strength to stand and face my tempters, and to stand out from the crowd, to be my own person and to know my worth: for I was purchased at a price,and to me I do not belong...."
 Being human,the fall is always a heartbeat away.
I have had much in life and had little. There are times I look into my wallet and it's skinny as hell and as if on cue someone just points me onto the path of self destruction. 
I choose not  to dance with the fire lest I fall into a trance and forget the promise I made to myself years ago not ever to be the reason a woman cries at night because her husband did not go home.
I choose not to let the cares of the world have their way only to lose hope and faith .
I have been called a fool and many times I have been told that I have no idea what I am missing.
Well, I clearly know what I am missing; the long tirade of curses made by women in desperation and the endless prayers they make to their Maker to fight their battles during those cold lonely nights...
I am smart enough to know I don't wanna be on the other side of the battle line with my Maker.
I am not a Loser.
I  choose  to take the path traveled by a few,
The way of Light,
To Life!